Time to Start Over

So...I have come to a crossroad in my life and I have to figure out how to get through it.

I sit here at my computer tonight thinking on how to move forward and appropriately for myself at this moment. I have come to a few conclusions:

1) I start training harder for my marathon in October. The training has seriously been slacking recently, but that's not the reason for this decision. I am going to train harder for myself as a goal to to say 'I can do it', 'I did it' and 'this is for me and no one else'. I need something else to focus on and I need a goal in my life right now and this is a tangible one.

2) I focus on work more and being the best I can be. It doesn't matter if its my current job or a job I may have down the road. This isn't so much for my work ethic, but more for a focal point that I can be sure to hone in on when times get tough. This could be a point of contention seeing as my work isn't always stress-free, but I can throw myself into it as best I can and hope I come out with my head above water.

3) I take time for myself. I love my friends and my family, but I need time for me now. I need to be there for myself and take the time to do what's best for me. That means some quality alone time scattered throughout this summer particularly.

I can and will do this. I know I can. I will need support from time to time and I know that I will have it when I need it, but there comes a point in one's life when sometimes, you have to do things for yourself...by yourself.

To anyone who is reading this...Happy (early) Fourth of July. I hope it may be happy and festive!